Ramblings

Well, it has once again been awhile since I posted. I always have been a bit fearful of commitment. I guess the place to start is with some updates of my life. My car was hit by some uninsured bitch who is now ignoring me. Time for court. And as such I no longer have a car and therefore am being driven around by my mother. And this arrangement means that in the last week I have spent one night at home and the rest at my mom's. Yes, my life is miserable at the moment. I also am dreading/looking forward to this saturday. I get to see a friend I haven't seen in awhile. Unfortunately, when I do see her I have to give her some information that she will not enjoy hearing and I feel she will be angry at me for quite a bit of time afterwards. Drama is stupid. And people who enjoy it are stupid. On the upside work was a bit busier this weekend. And being the loser that I am this made me insanely happy. I hope it keeps up :) It has been rainy and cold, which also makes me happy. As long as I am not cold that is ;) I also want to say that I miss my friends. Everyone is going to college and I am very jealous. I have gotten bored. I miss the intellectual stimulation of learning. People are worried that I will not go back next fall because of the year I took off, but I am way to bored not to. I have always loved learning new things and I want to start again through education. And back to the friends I miss. Aubry, I didn't see her much before but I see her less now and it sucks. I feel like she is also having a hard time with the changes she is going through and it makes me feel bad that I can't be there for her more. Marie, we always seemed to get sick of each other by the end of a school year but were always ready to be together again after summer. We didn't get to this year and that kind of makes me sad :( but we have actually been talking and seeing more of each other than I thought we would. We will see what happens. Ashley, I actually miss you more than I thought I would. You are the newest friend out of the ones that left and yet I miss you quite a bit. But I feel like you are doing pretty well adjusting up in good old Boise. I feel like eventually you will pretty much put this place and the people here behind you, but I want you to know we will always be here if you should want to come back :) All that being said I actually find myself missing last year. I like the change but there are definately things about it I miss. But those things are far to personal for a blog. Even if I write the blog for my own personal type of electronic diary. I tend to keep somethings even from myself so writing exactly what I miss just won't sit well with me. I don't miss high school. I am glad that is over. I met some amazing people that I will never forget but I wouldn't want to deal with the other people or any of the other stuff again. Though there aer a few classes I miss. But that would go back to my boredom. I think I need to find a hobby or passion. But those are hard. Especially when money is tight. Well I got distracted and left this page for awhile, which signals to me that I am done posting for now.