My Love For This Man Still Stands

The movie is also fantastic.

Suspicious

This may make me a bad person but here it is. In the past month I have heard of four different university officials being charged with child sex abuse. Three of these allegations sprung up after Sandusky was charged. There are also many against clergy and other such officials, as always. Now, the part that may make me a bad person is that I am a bit dubious on the legitimacy of some of these accusations. While it is always possible that the coming forward of a few victims gave the others courage, it is also possible that some people saw an opportunity to get some money. I would post links to all these news stories but there are far too many. Just go on any news site and you'll see at least three or four on the headlines, but even more if you look specifically.

Texas Cop Catches Arrested, Handcuffed Couple Engaged In Sex Act In Back Seat Of Police Car | The Smoking Gun

The article says it all. Except maybe "Hehe"

Texas Cop Catches Arrested, Handcuffed Couple Engaged In Sex Act In Back Seat Of Police Car | The Smoking Gun

A Beautiful Bride

Just wanted to say congratulations to Aubry and Skyler. They had a beautiful wedding and I wish them a happy life :)

Pretty Accurate

Turn Me On

I'm sure we have all heard about the Anthony Weiner sexting scandal. His name alone made it news-worthy. Some of the "sexy" pictures he sent have been released. They are even better than his sexts. Here is the one that turned me on the most.

If you want to see more, here is the link (which was fighting me on actually turning into a link) to the rest. They are worth looking at, just make sure you are alone...
http://www.ktla.com/news/landing/wpix-photo-gallery-new-photos-released-in-weinergate-graphic-20110606,0,4246506.photogallery

A Life Lesson

I have always known that kids are super smart and know things that the rest of us seem to forget. But lately, as in the last few days, I have realized just how smart they are. My little sister always is happiest to get time from me. She will always accept candy and such but spending time with her always makes her happiest. It made me realize that time really is the best thing you can give someone. Spending time with someone takes some effort but it is really the best thing you can do for them. It is usually the most enjoyable for the giver too, assuming you like the person. But if you are giving them your time it means and shows that you care about them. It also makes me feel bad that I don't spend more time with some people. The wisdom of children :)

A New Fear...

I had my iPod on shuffle earlier and a Shakira song came on. I only have a few of her songs but I really enjoy the ones I have. So, I listened and it got me thinking. She is only 5'2 and I'm pretty sure she could kick my ass. She's all pretty with those curves and what-not but I am secretly a little bit afraid of her. She sings about these men who have completely wronged her and she is just all strong and bad-ass about it. I would be afraid to make her mad. Or cross her. Or look at her wrongly. Yet at the same time I would probably get naked with her...

Dirty Picture

This is a skanky song that I find it funny and catchy...

This is Exciting Stuff

Fall is almost here and I am way excited :). The Halloween store just opened up and that seals it. Halloween is one of my favorite holidays. I love the atmosphere of it. And it is in fall which is a great season. The weather is nice and the clothes are good. And the fair is in a week. I love the fair. It's all about the food and I am happy to say I already have two "dates" to the fair. And that isn't nearly enough ;) At this point you are also still looking forward to the Holidays. Not yet worn out with family and shopping and snow and such. I'm sick of the heat and the skanky girls and all this summer crap.

First Two Classes Started

I had my first two classes today. I was a bit nervous about going back to school. It had been over a year and my brain is a bit mushy I'm sure. Once I was back in the learning environment I realized I have kind of missed it. I am still a bit scared. I have a lot of work ahead of me it seems. I liked the two professors I met today. My english professor seems tough. He knows his stuff and he seems like he will do his best to keep me very busy and teach me. I have a fear of failure, and now that I am in college I am feeling that fear again. I am hopeful that once I get used to it I will do fine :)

School Soon

School is starting up again in a couple of weeks. I took a year off and I am actually ready to go back to school. I miss the learning. And I am excited for the classes I have. I will have to readjust to mornings again though. Ashley will be happy that I am finally ready to go back. I enjoyed my year off but I am glad it was temporary. I get too bored. And my brain is turning to mush. I have been stumbling over grammar and sentence structure lately. I don't do that. And thus I need to go back to school. So, I will put up with mornings and people and homework again to save my intellect. =)

....

Well, I haven't blogged in about three month, disappointing my five official followers and my two non-official ones I'm sure. It has just been because I have been super busy though, not because I don't care about you guys and like to neglect you. I am going to try to start blogging again, simply because I enjoy it. I just haven't really even touched a computer the last few months. But I will put your mind to rest with the information that I am not dead. Yet.

Beauty

As my friend and I were driving around Pocatello today (running our white trash errands), we decided to look at some of the old houses in the historic district. These are one of the only beautiful parts of this gross town and made me giddy. I love old houses, or anything old really. It got me excited for a few things: First, a few of my summer trips to somewhat nearby historical places (i.e. Virginia City, Montana). Secondly, learning history again. History is something I love with a passion, along with learning. Being thus, I have desperately missed history classes. I enjoyed a year off from school but I am ready to go back and continue on in life. I am only taking one history class next semester, but I look forward to it and the ones to come. Thirdly, it got me excited for summer weather. It is when I do my most touring. Fourthly, it reinvigorated my dream of owning/possibly restoring a historical home. I figure it all ties in together and I love being reminded of it. :)

I Finally Finished So Now I Can Blog Again!

Picture 27- A Picture of You and a Family Member

I promise I didn't do anything to make my Grandma cry sad tears. She cries happy ones too.

Picture 28- A Picture of Something You Are Afraid Of

Generic but true. Failure.

Picture 29- A Picture That Can Always Make You Smile

I know I look like hell in this picture and it is one I thought I would never willingly let people see, but it makes me laugh because it shows our joy at making Marie sit on/press up on a strange guy. And if you know Marie, that is hilarious.

Picture 30- A Picture of a Place You Want to Be Right Now

Beautiful and peaceful. I love the woods and I love water. Best of both.

I Will Get This Done... 25 and 26

Picture 25- A Picture of You Last Year and How You Have Changed Since Then

Well, things in my life have changed since then. I have adapted to that. I guess if I had to say how I have changed is maybe a bit less stressed. A bit more happy. Not that I wasn't then. Guess it is a mystery to us all. :)

Picture 26- A Picture of Something That Means A Lot to You

Family, Friends, and Laughter. Not that I am laughing at Hans there, just that he makes me laugh....

21, 22, 23, 24

Picture 21- A Picture of Something You Wish You Could Forget

I know I have wasted many an entry on my hatred for snakes, but every experience with snakes is the only thing I'd want to forget. All my other memories I would love to keep, even the bad ones. They somehow contributed to my being.

Picture 22- A Picture of Something You Wish You Were Better At

I took lessons. I had a hard time with my left hand. And the bass cleft. Probably because I learned clarinet first. Maybe. Either way. I touched on it and abandoned it for things I love more.

Picture 23- A Picture of Your Favorite Book

I love my books way too much to have one favorite. They are one of my one true loves in life.

Picture 24- A Picture of Something You Wish You Could Change

17,18,19,20

Picture 17- A Picture of Your Pets

That's easy. I have none.

Picture 18- A Picture of Your Favorite Place

Anywhere the people I love are :)

Picture 19- A Picture of a Habit You Wish You Didn't Have

I can't really think of a habit I don't accept...

Picture 20- A Picture of Somewhere You Would Love to Travel

I have always had a fascination with Egypt and would love to see it.

14, 15, 16

Picture 14- A Picture of Your Favorite Pastime

Well, that covers a few of my favorite pastimes :)

Picture 15- A Picture of Something You Want to Do Before You Die

See previous picture.

Picture 16- A Picture of Someone You Have Been Friends With the Longest and Still Feel Connected To

I even found an older picture to show the age. Ok it is only a few years old. It works.

11, 12, and 13

Picture 11- A Picture of Something You Hate- I get a little uncomfortable even with real pictures of snakes. So you get a slightly non-horrifying cartoon.

Picture 12- A Picture of Something You Love

Picture 13- A Picture of Your Favorite Artist or Band

I like lots and can't choose.

8, 9, and 10

Picture 8- A Picture That Makes You Laugh

My aunt eveals my cousin's sex life to the entire family...

Picture 9- A Picture of the Person Who Has Gotten You Through the Most

She is amazing and knows my secrets and habits and still loves me and puts up with me. Who could ask for more?

Picture 10- A Picture of Someone You See Yourself Marrying in the Future

Totally happening.

5, 6, and 7

Picture 5: A Picture of Your Favorite Memory

I love all my memories. They add up to today. So here is a sample.

Picture 6: A Picture of Somewhere You Have Been

A town in Wales. Yes, I was told how to say it. No, I can't say it for you. That sign is the name.

Picture 7: A Picture That Shows Your True Self

I am a nerd through and through and willingly do nerd things.

Three and Four

Picture 3- Picture of the cast of your favorite tv show.

I don't know that I can name a favorite as it all depends on my mood. But this show has amused me for years and will probably continue to do so.

Picture 4- A picture of your day.

Ok, so this isn't today. But it is a picture of people I work with. And I went to work today. Though my night is proving to be a bit more exciting. But no pictures of that.

Start of the 30

I have decided to do the 30 Day Challenge, but I am going to do the 30 Picture Challenge. It is the same thing, I am just not doing it by days because I am sporadic with my postings. And I am doing it because I love pictures and have nothing to post about. So here are the first few:
Picture 1: A Picture of You with 10 Facts

1. I wanted the red coat because I like red accessories.

2. I am very indecisive.

3. I am a nerd that wants to major in history.

4. Pandas and raccoons are my favorite animals. I think it has something to do with the black eyes.

5. I am always thirsty.

6. I am the oldest of three girls.

7. Getting lost is one of the freakiest feelings to me.

8. My closest friends have almost always had an A name.

9. I like baking with nutmeg.

10. I love lists :)

Picture 2: A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.

Maybe not the best but you can definately see the loving tolerance ;)

No Good

Last night, as I was unable to sleep, I finished reading this book called The Messenger by Jan Burke around 4:30 a.m. It was supposed to be a horror novel. It was not. Even late at night and all alone it didn't even give me a slight chill. And while I don't scare often or easily, I should have at least gotten a moment of at least thinking that this was creepy. But I did not. And the passionate sex scene that I kept getting teased with never appeared. Disappointing book indeed. Entertaining and easy which is what I was in the mood for, but the characters were very underdeveloped and the plot extremely predictable. Even the moments of foreshadowing were completely predictable. No shadowing, just giving away the ending. I doubt I will be reading anything else by her.

We Haven't Lost It Yet

While I was sitting on the couch texting and staring at some show I wasn't really watching, I found myself thinking about how different people text. Even with all the little abbreviations and weird universal things that people use, individual voices still manage to blare through. Even if, for some reason, you were unable to see who your text was from, you would be able to tell who it was from. It made me happy to realize that text hasn't wiped out individuality like the "experts" are trying to tell us. Especially since people seem to be much more open and truthful in text. Which can be good or bad, but either way I enjoy it :). I then realized that I was sitting there analyzing not only my text messages but the concept of texting itself. I should have been ashamed. Should have been. I also should probably be ashamed that my first post in over a week is about texting. Maybe I should try this shame thing out. Might be good experience points. Or maybe I should go read a book or something so I have something intelligent to blog about.

Those Crazy Emotions and Cows Reiterated

There was a point in my life where I posted a post about emotions and cows. However, I didn't feel I had properly gotten my point across, so I deleted it before anyone (except Aubry) could read it. This even caused one of you to yell at me. So, I am giving it another go. I feel if I give the backstory as to what made me think all of this, it may make more sense. A little bit ago I randomly started cyber-stalking an old friend that I hadn't seen or talked to in quite some time. And by stalk I mean I just looked at their online profiles to see what had been going on in their life. This guy used to be a pretty good friend and I had a big thing for him, but we hadn't even spoken in about two years, despite being Myspace and Facebook "friends." Anyway, while I was sitting there reading about him going to school and getting football scholarships (as was highly expected) and about his girlfriend of quite a time, the weirdest thing happened. I felt actual jealousy for a moment. I don't feel jealousy often and when I do it is more of a Sad-I-Don't-Like-That Twinge. This wasn't that. It was the more sharp pang with a knot-in-the-stomach feeling. It passed quickly and didn't repeat in even a mild form, but it was weird. I knew I had fond memories of the kid but didn't know I even really felt any emotion towards him, and I probably don't. Anyway, the point was that it got me thinking about how weird emotions are, especially the negative ones. They seem to sneak up on us. And they can seem overpowering. They usually are much more sharp and immediate than happy ones, but they also recede much more quickly. Now, I'm not talking about the deep hurts that come back and eat at your soul regularly, but of those flashes of jealousy and anger and sadness and hurt. I find that I don't feel the negative emotions nearly as much as the positive ones, but when I do they always leave me feeling very lost. People just don't question positive ones. They are happy and don't need to remedy it. Yeah, I still feel like my thoughts aren't at all fluid, but I have typed too much to waste it. So, I will move onto the cows. I don't remember what led me to the thought that cows are weird, but I still maintain that they are. What with the mooing and the milk and the freaky-ass eyelashes. Weird.

Explanation?

So, as I am sure anyone who read this knows, I am a very indecisive person when it comes to the little things. One of the main things I am indecisive about (besides food and outings) is my profile picture. I will usually pick one after much debate and then sit on it for months. In order to rectify this I have started having other people pick for me every couple of weeks or so. I don't fight their choices, I just do it. Though now I feel it is changing enough to irritate people. Good. But, I didn't realize that it is kind of putting me out of my comfort zone by making me put up pictures I don't particularly like. Certain people (hint) tell me it's good for me. Hypocrite. Anyway, enjoy this superficial and pointless post.

This Is What Dreams Are Made Of

Back in 7th grade I was assigned my first research paper. We were told we could choose our topics. I don't know why but I chose dreams. I suppose at the time I found them interesting. However, 450 notecards and a minimum of 10 sources later, I realized that people over-analyze their dreams way too much. I think I started thinking of this because I have remembered two dreams in the last month or so. I know this doesn't sound like much, but for me it's a huge number. I hardly ever remember dreaming. But I hear about other people's quite a bit. And now, years and years after I turned in my horrible first attempt at a paper, I have finally reached my conclusion on dreams. I believe that Freud pretty much had it completely wrong; not all elements of a dream are symbolic of something sexual. Maybe in those sexy dreams, but I can guarantee that not everything dreamed has sex behind it. I also do not believe that every object, idea, word, action, etc. has symbolism behind it. Dreams can get weird but if the basic ideas and elements behind it are examined they have perfect ties to what is on our concious mind. Whether they be memories, fears, wants, preoccupations, they are clear to our concious as well as the subconcious. Often it seems that we find ourselves dreaming of things our concious mind doesn't want to admit or acknowledge, but our subconcious just isn't that nice to us. It sometimes makes us face feelings and facts that we don't want to deal with awake, and I think this is where people's theories on symbolism really comes in. It is usually presented to us in weird ways and that makes people want to analyze every little element where it really isn't needed. Well, there is a very brief summary of my useless thoughts. I figured I wouldn't delve into the scientific aspects of it beacuse it was boring as far as I took it. Now I just need to reach my actual thoughts on the Chicago World's Fair and Langston Hughes before I get other major completed paper added to my heap.

Happy I Found Him

I enjoy reading short stories. More specifically, I like reading short horror stories. I typically find them to be mindless reads that entertain and pass the time. I recently (as in yesterday) started reading some stories by Joe Hill. I had read his novel Heart-Shaped Box, which is a fun book. So, when I found his book of short stories for sale at Hastings I decided to give it a go. These short stories are actually making me think. It may be because I have nothing else to do in life, but I'm finding it kind of weird. The horror stories aren't all typical horror stories. There are the ones that deal with the ghosts and serial killers and such, but then there are some that are more obscure that are more sad than horrifying. But they are horrifying in their own right. The writing itself is good, not guild material but good. And the story lines aren't necessarily orginal but are still captivating. I'm not sure what is making me like the guy, but I do. I also discovered him to be Stephen King's son. I can see traits in Hill's writing that are similar to King's, but he managed to set himself apart from his dad's fame and not rise using accomplishments and talents that are not his own. I think I approve.

People and Their Vegetables

I usually don't mind talking to people I don't know. It can be kind of fun and interesting. But there are some things I just don't really care about or need to know from a stranger. One of these things is their feelings on peas. It can be mentioned in passing, but I don't need to hear about it for twenty minutes. I never knew that I did not need this, but it was discovered a few days ago whilst at my friends house. Her grandma's friend or sister or something like that came over. I had never met her before. We were introduced and started the normal menial chit-chat that social etiquette requires. It was all going fine and dandy until we started talking about her garden, more specifically her peas. She loves them. She knows a thousand different ways to prepare them. She fully believes in their nutritious value. She cared and knew enough to make me sit and listen for many minutes of my life that I felt wasted. If I know you, I will sit through such speeches simply because I care about you. If I don't know you, I probably still will out of politeness, but I will most likely walk away with many an unkind thought of you.

I Have An Awesome Cousin

I am watching all the people around me start to enter school to begin a career or to start to seriously think about their lives. And it is kinda cool to see what everyone is thinking they want to do. They are much more sure than me, at least for the moment. Majors will probably switch but that's expected. The one I hope doesn't switch is my cousin's. He is going into something artistic and he should stick with it. I don't understand his art much as it is usually based on media I don't follow, but I still see his talent and love hearing him describe how it is the minute detail that matters most to him. And I will admit I am proud of him for overcoming the odds and sticking with his passion despite discouraging circumstances. :) And I wish I had better pictures to put but this will have to do.

Professionals Know Best?

I was reading an article in a psychology journal the other day that I couldn't quite agree or disagree with. It was talking about how the most defining events in a person's life are the events that you can set a date to; deaths, births, weddings, etc. To help demonstrate it told the reader to think of the first date of a major life event that came to mind besides their birth date (the date that came to my mind was November 12). It then instructed us to think of how that event has weighed on everything in our life, including personality and attitude, since then. It then told us to try to predict how it would factor into our future lives. While I understood how November 12 has influenced everything in my life since and will until I die, I also somewhat disagreed. There are many things in my life that I can't set a date to yet I find them almost as defining or more so. I can't tell you when certain people became my best friends but their influence has been constant and will persist even after they are gone from my life (if they are). The article didn't dismiss these things as not influential, but as less influential just because it isn't necessarily a single pivotal moment. I have a hard time agreeing. And I would put a link to said article but I unfortunately can't find it anywhere on the web so the writers can't defend their position to you. But you have a very brief summary of my musings on it :)

In Want, Not Need

Last night, as I was sitting doing nothing at all productive, I decided that I really want a vacation. Preferably somewhere warm and without snow. But if the place is awesome enough, like Ireland, I am willing to put up with the climate. I went to Ireland once upon a time and I occasionally find myself really missing it. I really wish I had had more time. It appealed to the history lover in me. Not to mention how pretty it was. And the accents on those guys were pretty damn sexy. Now I just need one of these sexy accents to be rich to pay for the vacation.

Heartache Done Right

I am addicted to this song. I don't like Lady Gaga's version much but I like the deep emotion of this one. Much more of an emotionally tormented kind of yearning. And I enjoy it immensely.